Comments on Becoming Me by Angela Nazworth: Measuring Motherhood with a Broken Ruler --My Jour...

Thanks so much for sharing! This is my first time...

2008-04-27T22:29:23.097-04:00

Thanks so much for sharing! This is my first time to your blog and I look forward to reading more. I had PPD, but didn't realize it until my daughter was 1 1/2 years old. I am sure your honesty will help others realize they need to seek help ASAP!

Thank you for such a deep and raw sharing of your ...

2008-04-23T21:49:15.754-04:00

Thank you for such a deep and raw sharing of your experience with PPD. I had severe PPD with my daughter (now 3-1/2) and thought those exact same words ("...she'd be better off without me, I am such a horrible mother.."). That was the start of my journey through PPD and nearly 2 years to recovery. I am due in 3 weeks with sweet baby #2 and hearing that I wasn't the only one with those exact thoughts is very comforting. Through prayer, support and planning, I hope to avoid PPD with #2. But if it is part of our Lord's plan for me, I know that there is so much support out there that my family and I will make it through. God bless you and your ministry! Sarah

Thank you for sharing your experience with PPD. I ...

2008-04-23T07:04:17.286-04:00

Thank you for sharing your experience with PPD. I have no doubt God will use you to help other moms and bring glory to Himself.
I look forward to reading part 2.

I read this one a while ago, and didn't take the t...

2008-04-20T23:10:58.997-04:00

I read this one a while ago, and didn't take the time to comment. I've ridden both the anxiety and depression wagon for years, and love your poignant, realistic point of view. I pray your peace and serenity throughout these amazing, but trying years. Thank you for sharing with others. It's not so lonely when we all realize that we each have something to deal with--I believe those somethings are often allowed for us so that we'll surrender in total dependence to Him.

xxxooogretchen

thank you for sharing ... i agree, PPD is scary .....

2008-04-19T05:40:03.412-04:00

thank you for sharing ... i agree, PPD is scary ... but am glad that there are people out there who are really sincere about offering their help. :)

I went through my own valley after having my two k...

2008-04-18T22:25:41.552-04:00

I went through my own valley after having my two kids. The first couple years were so difficult for me.

I think its a good thing moms are coming out of their shame and sharing their pain. We need to support one another!

Lori

I saw your blog thru my friend, the Motherboard. ...

2008-04-16T23:14:37.501-04:00

I saw your blog thru my friend, the Motherboard. First, may I say that you write beautifully!
Second, thank you for speaking out about Potpartum Depression. I have had very similar experiences as yours and was afraid to admit i to anyone. I finally asked for an antidepressant when i was expecting baby #3 and it helped. I recently wrote about dealing with depression on my blog, if you interested in reading it.
Thank you

Beautiful. Straight from your heart. Thank you for...

2008-04-16T13:24:28.078-04:00

Beautiful. Straight from your heart. Thank you for sharing this. I'm so glad God gave you the green light to share this as I'm sure you are helping MANY.
Love,
Lelia

I know that by sharing this story instead of keepi...

2008-04-15T23:07:59.474-04:00

I know that by sharing this story instead of keeping it to yourself God will be glorified!

Thanks for visiting my blog! I appreciate your hon...

2008-04-15T22:00:01.157-04:00

Thanks for visiting my blog! I appreciate your honesty and candidness in your story. I know God will use this to speak to someone in a mighty way.

WOW WTG for writing this!

2008-04-15T17:47:32.521-04:00

WOW WTG for writing this!

I think it's wonderful that you are able to share ...

2008-04-15T16:20:05.994-04:00

I think it's wonderful that you are able to share your story to help others. Thank you for listening and obeying the Spirit's prompting in your heart!

I came to your site from Boo Mama's. Wow. Thanks f...

2008-04-15T14:37:48.150-04:00

I came to your site from Boo Mama's. Wow. Thanks for sharing your heart. I just wrote a book about the first year of motherhood (Changing Your World One Diaper at a Time, Harvest House), and several friends shared their PPD stories with me. (I put 2 in the book.) They so wanted to help other moms who feel alone going through this! Good for you!!

thank you for sharing

2008-04-15T14:21:25.266-04:00

thank you for sharing

Those feelings are real. AND whether every mother ...

2008-04-15T13:45:39.337-04:00

Those feelings are real. AND whether every mother would be so brave as to admit...has had similar fears and feelings. Even though it has long since past my days of youthful childbearing years...I still vividly remember the "what-if-syndrome" that I myself endured. But God was there---with this inexperienced mother--of 21. Now my girls have boys of their own. I pray that they will not have the feelings of "hopelessness" and "helplessness" that we sometimes feel...especially thinking that *everything* must be done PERFECT. It doesn't. Feed 'em, Change 'em, Love 'em. At all times. The way the Lord does us.
You are an incredible writer! I am indeed blessed to have been here!

Jen from Jax - Thank you. I agree with your statem...

2008-04-15T11:04:31.666-04:00

Jen from Jax - Thank you. I agree with your statement about the quiet calm of extreme feelings. I did experience that, but then I also felt horrible anxieties and panic attacks that I'll go into later as well as rageful moments.

Wow, what depth of inner turmoil. Oh how I ache fo...

2008-04-15T10:54:28.183-04:00

Wow, what depth of inner turmoil. Oh how I ache for women with PPD. I never had it with my two. But my battle of going crazy is there. Other things that drive me deeper into depair. I am so thankful we have a God who holds us and never lets us go.

Thanks for sharing your heart and for praying for me with my PACE study. Appreciate you.

The sharing of stories like yours is so important ...

2008-04-15T10:36:28.696-04:00

The sharing of stories like yours is so important to the community of mothers. So often, we want to cover up our struggles, certain that we've struggled alone. But that's just not true. I appreciate your transparency and willingness to open your heart. I had PPD with both of my children and know how debilitating it can be. The first time around, I didn't know anyone else who had had PPD, and that made it all the worse. The second time, I had a network of support and knew that I wasn't alone.

Thanks for your honesty.

Thanks for sharing! I, too, had PPD with both my ...

2008-04-15T10:20:25.310-04:00

Thanks for sharing! I, too, had PPD with both my kids, but worse with my second. The thing that's important to mention is that it's not a rage feeling of being out of control. It's a calm, eerily peaceful feeling of 'I just want to end it all now..." It's a calm, deep sadness. The good news is that God is Bigger than any feelings associated with PPD. Seek Him and a good doctor!

Joyfully His,
Jen in Jax

What an encouragement you are to so many others ou...

2008-04-15T10:15:56.737-04:00

What an encouragement you are to so many others out there who have experienced the same thing. Becoming a parent is so amazing but scary and overwhelming at the same time! Thanks for your words!

I agree with others that it was very brave of you ...

2008-04-15T09:48:39.286-04:00

I agree with others that it was very brave of you to share this. Your unselfish act will help many.

i'm sure your posting will help so many people. th...

2008-04-15T02:06:32.753-04:00

i'm sure your posting will help so many people. thanks for being so truthful!

Oh, God bless you for being so blatantly open in o...

2008-04-15T01:53:43.993-04:00

Oh, God bless you for being so blatantly open in order to reach out to others...

In my case, I had PPD after my first was born- which was in part also post-trauma stress and depression. I had actually nearly died right after childbirth with internal bleeding and was rushed to surgery (the kind where you're awake the whole time) and needless to say, it was true trauma for me.
Because of the blood loss (despite a transfusion) I was extremely weak for a long time...which made me just want to sleep for weeks and not have the responsibilities of taking care of a newborn.
I lamented the fact that I wasn't having those warm, fuzzy feelings I was suppose to have...I felt guilty and depressed.
There's a sad photo taken where I'm trying to sleep and recover after coming home, and my husband puts our sleeping baby in bed with me...but I am so exhausted I almost resent having her in the bed...I want to sprawl out and relax...and I'm turned away from her trying to go back to sleep.
It makes me want to cry just thinking about this...such a far cry from the second time around when God granted me the blessing of enjoying my newborn baby as I had always hoped to. In fact, I cuddled with her so much that I would gaze with love at her and well up with tears.
Of course, I feel guilty even now that it wasn't in me for my firstborn...even though I know it wasn't by choice.

I can so relate to this. thanks for being brave en...

2008-04-14T22:53:22.548-04:00

I can so relate to this. thanks for being brave enough to post about it! i know so many people don't get it!

p.s. Tagged you for a Meme....

2008-04-14T18:52:59.269-04:00

p.s. Tagged you for a Meme....